A Returning Post

It's been a very long time since I've been on here.

The past nine months have been very much up and down and a lot has changed in my life.

I went from being in one job, then I moved into another job. I applied for funding for a masters, applied for the masters itself and then got onto the course. Talk about a life turn around?

I've met new people, who I love dearly and stayed dear friends with those who are the most important to me. I travelled a little, danced a fair bit and of course, I still haven't stopped eating cake or drinking wine.

I've lost weight, gained weight, lost weight again and then gained it back. It's been a stressful issue but I'm in a better place about everything and I'm still working on trying to remain happy and healthy. I turned 23 in November and I suddenly panicked about my life, I looked at other people I knew and I felt a little lost.

In September, I lost my granddad. A man who I was very close to and who supported me in all my life decisions. He pushed me to go back to university and celebrated when I got in. He listened to my stories and I listened to his, he was very much the story teller. Losing him was a huge blow and I still haven't quite recovered and I don't think I ever will. I miss his voice and family events and homes seem quite desolate without it.

Alongside some other personal issues, it has certainly been an extremely trying period of my life. Somewhere along the way, my blog just fell into the back of my mind. I felt exhausted all of the time and the prospect of writing out a post about my latest lipstick seemed completely pointless. Why on earth would I want to talk about these things when I finding happiness in reality was a struggle?

It's been in the last month or so when I've started to miss writing, I wanted to get back to trying to have something in my life to focus on in my spare time, which doesn't revolve around my job or my studying.

So here we are, this little starting post of what I hope will be the start of me returning to blogging.

So here's to the future, here's to me trying to find that happiness that I was holding onto so tightly last year and I hope to truly regain some inner peace. Most of all, I hope to talk to all you lovely people again, I've missed speaking to each and every one of you.

- Lauren